It's always been, in my opinion, my biggest thorn. when i'm in a sticky situation or a regular every day one for that matter, i like to solve it myself. i like to get things done and move on to the next shananigan. i know what you're thinking. "what's wrong with getting stuff done?" and the answer is...nothing. that's how we grow and catch up with this fast paced world we live in. my problem is that i tend to rely soley on myself and my skills, but we get so busy and caught up with simple problems like cooking or chores that once we get the larger problems like troubles with relationships and attitude we want to deal with them in the same manner. which, hard as it is to admit, just won't do. we need help. we need to talk to friends but most importantly, we need to pray. keep our head clear and say 'God, help.' now i, of all people, know that we often are too stubborn to admit defeat and ask for help but i've learned that i can not handle situations like this on my own. recently when i was dealing with my latest 'delima' i invited my dear love anna holt over. i needed an unbiased mind to listen and advise. we talked all day and night and learned that we were both in very similar situations. we talk and somewhat made decisions but we both knew we were still on the fence. the next day we sat in the pool and it went a little quiet as we both sat there pensively. suddenly, a cold drop hit my arm. it was such a beautiful sunny day, but rain started to fall. anna and i looked up and sat in silence and awe as we experienced god's amazing power. this was something i'd never experienced. you could look straight up into that beautiful sunny sky and watch each individual droplet float to the ground. i closed my eyes. i couldn't believe how silly i had been. my god is so awesome and amazing. he can flood the earth, make a blind man see, set soaked materials ablaze, and make a paralyzed man walk. was i really ignorant enough not to trust him with my measly issues? i knew then that though i may get nervous or antsy, if i turn whatever it may be completely to god and stop trying so hard to fix it myself, he'll show me where i need to go and who i need to be. and if the decision may not be the one i particularly wanted and it may hurt, i know my god will comfort me and heal me.
Psalm 147:3-He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.
Very very very proud of you. (: This is a struggle we all have as we grow up and there are grown-ups who still have the same problem. We tend to want to do everything on our own. I've recently learned the same lesson. Why not turn to God and tell him our problems when he already knows? It's not like we can possibly hide them from him anyways. :) Having a good set of friends is a GREAT thing also.
ReplyDelete- Jimmy.